Hell Week

I have 2 midterms in 2 days. I am utterly unprepared. Yet all I can think about is all the confusion that surrounds my life. I don't know what I'm doing. I just want to stop thinking... to stop feeling? I have an interview this Saturday for an accounting firm, which will basically make or break my future as an accountant. I really want the internship.... but why?

I am at the point in my life where I am happy.... but am I? I am trying so hard for a career that I despise. I am in a relationship with someone that... I have lost feelings for. I am desperately searching for the ideal... trying to make perfection from my reality.

I want a simple life. Life loses its simplicity when you overthink it. I wish I could stop thinking. I don't know what to do with myself. For the past few days, whenever I start thinking.... I just start crying. Don't get me wrong-- I am enjoying my life right now. Yet, there's still something very unsettling. In my gut. In my heart.

I just want to be happy and make other people happy. Easier said than done.